thoughts
Alot has happened in the past couple of days.
Christmas! Sinsmas! Hehe. I got a new Camera, and the new Pokemon game! I'm excited, I avoided spoilers somehow for the longest time, but now I get to play for myself! I chose Chikorita (my favorite pokemon, personally), who hasn't been a proper starter pokemon since 2012! How exciting. I've been playing that for the past few days now, it's very fun! I turned her into a small sprite as well 
With that being said, my great grandfathers final days are here. I'm quite scared, I cried alot today. I've never dealt with grief this hard, I've cried this hard over such useless things before, it feels strange to truly cry for something worth crying for. I guess. I feel like I didn't know him like my mother or my grandmother, my aunts and my uncle. I still love him just like I love anyone else in my family, though. I'm sad in a way I can't understand, I've always been scared of death, though. So maybe that's it.
I hope he lives happily in heaven.